-TYC; thanks hor.. win my money?? the three of u bluff my money loh.. especially mabel! treat me eat kFc.. yuan lai got motive one.. hahahahahas..=D

-LHQ; yayaya.. i have you all la hor.. have you all to win my mahjong money jiu you arh! WAHAHAHAHAHA!!! =D

-TYC; dun bluff lah! you sure will win with 1tai again one! I know you well! -_-!

-zell; i have already did! or MAYBE i did la.. anyway.. thanks! =D

-priscilla; the thing is.. the moment i wanted to tok about it.. the word seems to be stuck inside my throat la.. HAHAHA!!

-priscilla; i guess i have to do it that way bah! =) thanks!

Hi world.. thks for the patience.. here's my update.. hahahahas.. =D anyway.. it's been pretty busy these few days. =( Work, sick, and plenty of eventful stuff. Shall take my time to blog every single one of it. =)

One by one.. my frens around me went for enlistment le. Hahas.. ytd was kJ's turn. Poor kJ -_- gonna suffer for this 3 torturing months. Met up with mel and i-chieh to acc kJ to pulau tekong. Guess what.. i seriously tink the training centre dere was pretty awesome! =D hahahas.. ten times better than Npcc campsite which was sited at palau ubin. =D anyway, kJ was pretty well prepared, went for a hair cut right before his enlistment day. and thank god.. im with 3 botaks when we boarded the bus to changi ferry terminal. -_-!

Visited the bunks they sleep in, the gym they use, the place they draw their weapons and etc.. Went all the way back to the auditorium for kJ's oath taking ceremony.. well.. quite impressed with they strong vocal from his platoon ppl la.. hahahas.. =D Food tasting was next and there he goes.. our man to be.. Let's hope he will do fine inside tekong bah!

Picture wasn't much cos we dunno whether can take pictures or not.

After kJ's enlistment, mel and I went to town for some shopping! and finally! i can shop something for myself! =D hahahas.. Went to far east and bought myself a shirt. after buying, when we are on our way to CK tangs, suddenly have the urge to change my shirt. =D guess what! i steadily changed it down and mel does exactly the same thing when he buy himself an adidas t-shirt and a pair of converse shoe.. HAHAHAHA!! I know it was rather random.. =)

Met up with bren, calyn and Cy for sake sushi @ parkmall.. i think i seriously need to make myself a pair of new specs.. i think mel's one is damn cool la.. that's y kept playing with it.. ahahahhaas..

Okie.. it's getting late! Im gonna go slp le... tmr still need to work.. stay tuned! i'll update tml again.. =D gdnite world!

EMO! EMO! EMO! EMO!

Here it goes again.. thanks to yichin and huiqi for engaging in such a nice topic after our mahjong session where i lost around $20+.

Must be wondering what topic they talking about rite.. well.. BGR -_- they asked me whether did i thought of giving up and pursue a new one.

They said exactly the same thing like what chuanyuan and guangyao said another day.. coincidence.. hahaha..

they kept psycho-ing me that i can easily forget her and find a new one. they even gave me tons of ways to do it.

Well, what can i said? All i can said is.. it's always easy say than doing..

I appreciates their concern.. =)

thanks girls!

i was asked; "when will u give up?" i will give up when i finally get to hear from her personally that she dun hav abit of feelings 4 me at all. that will eventually kill me off then.. -_-

they are telling me that i shouldnt waste anymore time. it's been 2 year plus.. and, i still cannot change the fact that we are still not together.

ppl are telling me that she looks like she doesn't care at all.

and ppl are telling me that another girl seems nicer to me and i should treasure this opportunities.

I wanted to ask her..

"is it the end for us?"

because it seems like she is avoiding me.. she didnt reply my msg since last wed and i didnt see her online at all.

am i being too sensitive?

i dunno..

i just know that..

i heard something..

i heard my heart has broken into pieces once again..

i heard my heart crying..

crying to me, saying that they couldnt take it anymore..

saying that they need someone to care and love them..

can someone pls guide me..

give me the best possible situation..

i seriously needed help..

save me..

Am I Not Good Enough For You?

Has been thinking pretty much lately.. I was wondering.. does she even give a damn about me? I thought we promised to work towards it.. But i think im the only one willingly to work towards it.. she ain't giving it a try..

the care and concern i used to feel from her.. has gone long ago. all i needed is just these two things, isn't very difficult? I definitely think im not trying to be selfish or greedy la.. It's the promise that we made that kept me thinking that i should at least get the care and concern from you.

I tired my best to do so.. but arent she suppose to treat me likewise? I know love is not about equal treatment.. i know i shouldn't compare.. but.. not even a caring act from her at all.. NONE! I think i at least deserve sth from her.. -_- Im always thinking.. thinking dat it's alright.. perhaps you are busy with your school work and you doesnt have the time to bother about me. i can understand.. that's y im always there for you even though i didnt get the almost same treatment from you. But, why itzit that you still dun give a damn about me when you've finally free yourselves from school work?

am i not good enough for you?

please guide me.. ='(